I really don't know why I'm blogging about this, except to get it off my chest I guess. You know, sometimes things just hit you the wrong way, you react, and the way you react is ok, it's perfectly fine, but you still feel a little strange...ok ok, here's the situation.
So, while out and about with my husband tonight, we decide to go into a store and sign up for a baby registry. Now, we have no real clue what in the world to even put on this list, but I figured, it's time to get started. So, we sit down, they congratulate us and we start filling out some "paperwork" so they can get us in the system. Not so crazy, right? Name, address, due date, etc. So...I flip the page over and at the bottom it says: "Grandparents."
I started crying...I had no idea they would ask that question. I had no idea I would react in the way I did. I had no idea that some day when I began to fill out a baby registry I wouldn't be adding my dad as a living grandparent. I just started crying and everyone looked at me. I mean, why wouldn't they? Filling out a baby registry is hardly something to cry about...right? Even Jacob didn't know what the deal was really. I had to explain..."I'm sorry, I just lost my dad, and I didn't know you would ask for grandparents."
I couldn't stop apologizing for making this poor man feel so awkward across the table. He apologized to me for upsetting me...geesh, it wasn't his fault! It wasn't mine either. It's just another reality...cold and harsh sometimes.
Well then, the waterworks were on and thanks to those RAGIN' HORMONES...it took me a good 2 minutes to stop crying. *sigh*, oh well. I keep saying, if I didn't cry about things like this, I'd have to ask myself how much I really did care. Tears do bring healing, even if it's in public, in a terribly awkward position, over paperwork! :)
Wow, that does feel better! Blogging is the BEST! :)
oh and ps. please don't go search for a baby registry for us...it's NO WHERE near ready...my husband WAS the one with the registry gun...ha ha ha!
2 comments:
You might need to invite that poor man over for dinner...lol! Can't wait to see what Jacob picked out. Love you both!
Hey Sarah! Ran across your blog - so excited to see how happy you are.
I know what you mean about the waterworks. I was totally cool my whole pregnancy, not overly crying or anything. But - we got to the prenatal class. Sitting in that room with 30 or so other first time moms, and it hit me - I finally was going to be a mom after a long journey. I bawled my eyes out. Good thing it was dark in there. The epidural movie doesn't exactly inspire one to weep with joy.
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